During all the years he had lived among them in Clongowes and in Belvedere he had received only two pandies and, though these had been dealt him in the wrong, he knew that he had often escaped punishment. O why was that so? O why? He cowered in the shadow of the thought, abasing himself in the awe of God Who had made all things and all men. Still," I mused, "They must do, for they make me feel more than ever that I must watch. Well, I needed to be remarkable to offer a front to the remarkable things that presently gave their first sign.